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I agree that... The man who said "I'd rather be lucky than good" saw deeply into life. People are afraid to face how great a part of life is dependent on luck. It's scary to think so much is out of one's control. There are moments in a match when the ball hits the top of the net and for a split second it can either go forward or fall back. With a little luck it goes forward and you win. Or maybe it doesn't and you lose.
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me a bad girl. darn!  

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i did behave badly last night.
for being on the phone since we've arrive,
not really joining your fun,
for wanting to go home earlier,
and left without word,
and made everybody cant hangout longer.

but
i really have this feeling,
i need to go home. ASAP.
and i dont belong there.
even i love a happy ambience.


p.s. kalau mak aku tau aku wat camtu, mampos.

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i will never hate this  

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one thing,
i always looooove BUDU.
that's why i always prayed that i dont hv allergic for seafood.
and it kinda granted, i think. coz i got apple instead.

and my grandma said,
on my wedding day, it gonna rain damn hard.

hahahahahahahahahhahaha!
XD

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sisterhood are meant to be like that. i guess.  

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i have bad impressions on myself. always.
but i know where to feels good.
when i am with them.
my sisters.

never have i dislike being with them.
well, maybe sometimes. when they started to bully me.
saling kutuk2, sharing thoughts, secrets and reading each others SMSes.
and oh, mengumpat on my mom. but dont worry, she knew it and hit us back. hard.
ouch!

how grateful i am when we are different?
we call each other weird and ugly.
and announce ourselves as so-called normal and pretty/cute.
ngaaa~

we're sisters. we're friends. we're enemies.
we said we hate each other. even sick of the sight of each other.
but who else we have from ourselves?
we'll turn to each other eventually.
=)

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less is more.  

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less is more.

less talking, more listening, more thinking n one thing for sure, less dosa.
less lepaking, more studying, more reading.
less love, more life, more fun! haha!
=P

i hate hypocrites. really. though i am like that sometimes.
but, i see many relationship, be it the friendship, love-ship, etc, are built based on this.
and yet, successful. okay, i heard something. define successful in term of what r u talking about.
i think it is a long-lived relationship. bertahan. no big, crappy conflicts.

we rarely show our true-self. really?
only those selected ones know what we are.
n the others? just us on the surface or just a character we play as in the world as the stage.

and why i chose to crap about this?
i had heard these quiet a lot recently. hypocrite. two-faced. pretender. backstabbing. love-hate. distrust. and many more which i dont really remember. and i'm sick of it.
it's like,
why be friend when you dont like the other?
why close when you talk behind him/her?
why use your friend for self-benefit?
why be the parasite?
why be confide in others when you dont trust him/her?
why make stories?
why hurt your friends?
why, why and many whys.

sgt bodoh.
i hate to hear it.
especially i know the person we're talking about. and i thought i know him/her well.
but i dont.
what make it worse, i dont know what to feel. should i be mad? frustrated? sad? anxious?

i am a person that rarely get really mad (even just mad). i prefer, when i am feeling like hurt, or angry, to just keep myself in silence, pretended to be like, blur, and usually stay away from the person/thing until i feel okay. or when it is overwhelming, cut my hair off. the burden gone, and i'll forget.
and very insensitive on the outside. and a bit insensitive in the inside. too emo making life hard and unhappy. =)
and i dont like to be sad for others. i have myself to think of.

i hate the world. how the people live in it.

people are strange.
some are like what i mentioned above.
some thought when we're friends, we have to confide everything. which is think is a total bullshit.
some are like soo confusing.
some are like me, nagging and nagging when in the same time i am the one who pokes in other's business and feel like owhkay, why had i listened! when i have my own problems unsolved.
some are too nice that we're like soo segan and uncomfy to hv them around.
some are too bad and you feel, nape mase kecik xmampos sajerr?!
some are too emo.
some are too insensitive that is a bit annoying.
some are blogging, like me and talk nonsense.

yeah. i am starting to become nonsense. better stop. and sleep. and play. and assignments.

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the artsy me.  

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i am always bad at art.

i hate painting.
but i had won once when i was in primary 6.
and proud like hell when my portrait of dr rizal hose was like.. wow!
irony, eh?

i dont really into music.
but i was in a school band. but i joined it coz my friends were all into it.
i think men with sax are hot. XP
i also think some bassist are cool~
my sisters and i love making our own videos on various songs.
monika and me always go for the headbanging in my mom's car. =)
i hate going to the concert. i'll die.
my fingers are too short and too delicate to play any instrument. =P
i dont really like singing in the public.
i dont really listen to the radio.
most of the songs that are new to me are outdated to others.

i am bad at sculpture/pottery
my fingers just wont get it.

i hate to act.
i can lie pretty well if i want to.
but prefer to play naive. XP
i have a role in our shakespeare play.
but i think i am the worst actress.
i prefer backstage role. just paint that damn backdrops. mixing paints.

conclusion,
i am not and never be an artist.
and i never be the mecca to them too~

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